Self-portrait: Putting yourself in the picture
Intent and approach
By far this has been my most challenging OCA assignment to date. A lot has to do with a lack of confidence in my ability, so it’s easier to delay and drift off somewhere else (literally or in my mind) than tackle the work. It is also very personal, it’s about me and like many, I don’t like my photograph being taken. I want to portray my current inner world (thoughts and emotions) visually. This work represents my frustration, doubts, delaying and daydreaming.
I can describe how I feel, but making the transition from feelings into photographs has proved daunting, I focus and then my mind goes blank – the psychological barriers are raised again. It struck me that this whole dilemma was taking over my life and therefore this is what I should be portraying – how I’m feeling right now!
I wanted to push myself to develop the creativity in my photography work. I hear my tutor’s encouraging words; be bold, take risks, experiment, turn ideas on their heads! I set about shooting images that are confined to home, mostly outside because that is where I do most of my thinking and reflecting. Also the ‘confinement’ represents how I feel about this assignment.
I have utilised the principle of Jason Shulman’s approach (see planning and preparation link below). Shulman condensed entire movies into single photographs by taking long-exposure photographs and flattening them into a single image. I like the idea of compiling images in this creative way. My images have more structure and definition than Shulman’s, but the technique is the similar. I wanted to depict the fogginess in my head, the lack of a clear vision, the barriers I raise. Also metaphors to represent turmoil, undefined plans, no track of time, tangle of thoughts. My intention is to outwardly express the emotions I feel internally.
See here for more detail of my approach and rationale A3 Planning and preparation
Below are my chosen images for assessment.
What lives in pictures is very difficult to define…it finally becomes a thing beyond the thing portrayed…some sort of section of the soul of an artist that gets detached and comes out to one from the picture…. Francis Bruguiere (1)
1.Wells, L. (Ed:) (2009). The Photography Reader. Routledge, London. Bruguiere, F. Photographers on Photography (ed. N Lyons). P411.